a bunch of work had piled up for me at my volunteering gig since i missed it last week (bc i was sick) and it felt weirdly good to know that my skills were valued and nobody else stepped in to pick up the slack. idk if that makes sense, but knowing that they set aside the work bc they wanted me to do it made me feel good. the boss lady was not there today, and i met a new (to me) volunteer who was driving me bonkers at first (she talks to herself a disruptive amount) but who ended up forcing lunch on me and we had a really nice lunch break. and the woman who trained with me on the first day asked if i would go over some stuff with her that she couldn’t understand in training and just. it’s hard for me to remember that human interaction is good for me. it’s hard to trust that i should do it, even when i don’t want to. forcing it and stepping out of my boundaries has really helped me feel less social anxiety than i used to.